If i gave a test on moving on i would fail with a 0% grade. like i totally cant do that.
at all.
i keep clinging onto things that aren't there anymore

and i ignore the present

im such a bonker

i keep staring at the phone and wait for it to ring
it doesn't
i know it won't but i still keep on waiting
even if it rings it some asshole who 'wants to make friendship with me'
( dude how is that even possible..i get making love but friendship?ughhh)
i promised to let go
but i'm failing i guess
i'm doing my best to move on
but am i?
just 1 year ago my life changed
maybe i wasn't ready for a sudden change so fast
i want to rewind my life and go back in time
when i laughed more often
i miss my laughs
i miss my old self

CHANGE

change is what obama wants rite? we all do...
i want change in this country like desparately
but i hate the sudden change in me...
im like such a boring hag nowadays..
i almost dont talk compared to my previous self
i only LAUGH when Ma is impersonating my maids or when i watch spongebob *sigh*
i hate my stupid boring loathsome self now ....I HATE IT!
i just wanna be my old self...
but the problem is i dont know what caused this sudden change in me...so i dont how i will go back to my old self may be all i need is time...

i hope Jayitappi's wedding 'festival' charges me up to my old hyped up self..CANT WAIT!