BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN!

I actually decided not to blog anymore and simply started ignoring it.

but for some reason i wanna start blogging again

and this time

NO MORE QUITTING!

life has changed so much..

and now i know it was for the best :D

life is definitely teaching me a lot about FAKE PEOPLE

yup.

FAKE.

but im happy that royal phony is long gone now.

i wish i wrote down all entries about the zarrin n my hangouts.

THEY ARE THE BEST!!!

rickshaw rides.

caramel popcorn.

well food.

talking for hours.

bunking hira miss.

SECRETS :P

but i will from now on.PROMISE!

and there is one more very important issue i wanna write about.

but i dont have the words.

i will hopefully someday.

and lots more about my last drama.

phew! i got my net back after literally a month! meanwhile my 18th birthday was celebrated on 9th then on 14th one of my best friend died.( not literally but for me he is DEAD )

never in dreams have i imagined that i will be betrayed by one of the people i loved and trusted the most.

i was shattered at first because my friendship was genuine unlike his so at first it did hurt alot.

but it only took a few days to get back on track

now im perfectly FINE.

as nijhum apu advised me i'll take the whole incident as a lesson

so in future i wont have to face a son of a bitch like him

and even if i do i'll know what to do

and now have a awesome friend

Zarrin! just love u gal!

whoaaaa!!!things have changed so much..my life is changed, ron's life is changed. No more loserism! lol..i guess its all part of growing up...high school..hehe..and im so happy for ron..but one thing is for sure that no one ..NO ONE can take my ron away from me! we r soulmates and will always be. n i hate how people started calling ron 'ron' i mean i call her ron ..no one else!!!! bleh!

im sorry my dear blog

ok bloggy im really sorry!! i dont care if people will try to send me to pabna mental hospital after this..but not updating u for more than a month was a crime..i admit it...and i promise i wont let that happen again....soweeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

I' m so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
this is the best valentine' s day ever!

My possessiveness pisses me off sometimes
i mean i just cannot share my loved ones with anyone
at all
especially when comes to best friends
im super duper possessive about them
i was and still am and i can't change it
but i must say im improving though
ronika has to agree with this cuz man was i possessive about her!
im so weird
well there is one quote that i read that totally changed the way i thought:

IF YOU EVER WANT SOMETHING BADLY. THEN LET IT GO. IF IT COMES BACK TO THEN ITS YOURS FOREVER IF IT DOESN'T THEN IT WAS NEVER YOURS TO BEGIN WITH...

tomorrow im going to dhaka for jayitappi's wedding! i mean I've waited so long for this moment to come at its here!ahhhhhh!! will be missing 7 damn days of school! but man its worth it..i dont care what happens i'm gonna be there...JUST CANNOT WAIT!!

If i gave a test on moving on i would fail with a 0% grade. like i totally cant do that.
at all.
i keep clinging onto things that aren't there anymore

and i ignore the present

im such a bonker

i keep staring at the phone and wait for it to ring
it doesn't
i know it won't but i still keep on waiting
even if it rings it some asshole who 'wants to make friendship with me'
( dude how is that even possible..i get making love but friendship?ughhh)
i promised to let go
but i'm failing i guess
i'm doing my best to move on
but am i?
just 1 year ago my life changed
maybe i wasn't ready for a sudden change so fast
i want to rewind my life and go back in time
when i laughed more often
i miss my laughs
i miss my old self

CHANGE

change is what obama wants rite? we all do...
i want change in this country like desparately
but i hate the sudden change in me...
im like such a boring hag nowadays..
i almost dont talk compared to my previous self
i only LAUGH when Ma is impersonating my maids or when i watch spongebob *sigh*
i hate my stupid boring loathsome self now ....I HATE IT!
i just wanna be my old self...
but the problem is i dont know what caused this sudden change in me...so i dont how i will go back to my old self may be all i need is time...

i hope Jayitappi's wedding 'festival' charges me up to my old hyped up self..CANT WAIT!

winter break in dhaka [Annita apu's wedding]

so now i'm boro fuppi's house blogging after a million year..as usual though..this blogging thing is still new for me..bleh...

so at first we moved into annita apu's place..the biye bari..so yeah it was fun i must say..packing tacking and sleeping in was the usual..mojai chilo..

would the DJ party after annita apu's gaye holud..

and the weirdest one would be when i gave a red rose to the guy who was singing a parody about me and then later i figure out that the girl who was standing beside him was his gf! i mean i gave her bf a red rose in front of a hall full of people while she was standing beside him and bechari could do nothing..but ami ki janitam!
im a born LOSER....r kichu na..man ejjot shob gelo...

well priyota apparently grew up pretty fast..she can speak like everything..sing panjabiwala, jatrabala and one other weird song which goes like 'nodi chai cholte tara chai jolte amar mon chai bolte' LOL and no one has an idea where she learned this song..
Then yesterday she started singing
babri kata tar telapokaaaa!!
hehehe..no one will guess that she is only 2..etto roshik hoise o..

and purnota is cute as ever...kotto kichu bole kintu kichui bujhi na..

My new darling PARTHIBis still a leda bachcha...just have to wait a few more days than he will turn into a warior himself...

I'm like totally loving my lifestyle now. i dont want school to reopen cuz i didnt do any of my homework and will have to finish it up in 3 damn days. but then again i look forward to drama and everthing that has to do with it. and not to mention jayitappi's wedding. still don't know if i'm staying for her walima.

Alvi apparently added a album in facebook called celebrity lookalikes and guess what im azam khan. whoa what a surprise!:@

in the end i still dont wnat to go back to ctg tomorrow!