phew! i got my net back after literally a month! meanwhile my 18th birthday was celebrated on 9th then on 14th one of my best friend died.( not literally but for me he is DEAD )

never in dreams have i imagined that i will be betrayed by one of the people i loved and trusted the most.

i was shattered at first because my friendship was genuine unlike his so at first it did hurt alot.

but it only took a few days to get back on track

now im perfectly FINE.

as nijhum apu advised me i'll take the whole incident as a lesson

so in future i wont have to face a son of a bitch like him

and even if i do i'll know what to do

and now have a awesome friend

Zarrin! just love u gal!

whoaaaa!!!things have changed so much..my life is changed, ron's life is changed. No more loserism! lol..i guess its all part of growing up...high school..hehe..and im so happy for ron..but one thing is for sure that no one ..NO ONE can take my ron away from me! we r soulmates and will always be. n i hate how people started calling ron 'ron' i mean i call her ron ..no one else!!!! bleh!

im sorry my dear blog

ok bloggy im really sorry!! i dont care if people will try to send me to pabna mental hospital after this..but not updating u for more than a month was a crime..i admit it...and i promise i wont let that happen again....soweeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

I' m so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
this is the best valentine' s day ever!

My possessiveness pisses me off sometimes
i mean i just cannot share my loved ones with anyone
at all
especially when comes to best friends
im super duper possessive about them
i was and still am and i can't change it
but i must say im improving though
ronika has to agree with this cuz man was i possessive about her!
im so weird
well there is one quote that i read that totally changed the way i thought:

IF YOU EVER WANT SOMETHING BADLY. THEN LET IT GO. IF IT COMES BACK TO THEN ITS YOURS FOREVER IF IT DOESN'T THEN IT WAS NEVER YOURS TO BEGIN WITH...

tomorrow im going to dhaka for jayitappi's wedding! i mean I've waited so long for this moment to come at its here!ahhhhhh!! will be missing 7 damn days of school! but man its worth it..i dont care what happens i'm gonna be there...JUST CANNOT WAIT!!

If i gave a test on moving on i would fail with a 0% grade. like i totally cant do that.
at all.
i keep clinging onto things that aren't there anymore

and i ignore the present

im such a bonker

i keep staring at the phone and wait for it to ring
it doesn't
i know it won't but i still keep on waiting
even if it rings it some asshole who 'wants to make friendship with me'
( dude how is that even possible..i get making love but friendship?ughhh)
i promised to let go
but i'm failing i guess
i'm doing my best to move on
but am i?
just 1 year ago my life changed
maybe i wasn't ready for a sudden change so fast
i want to rewind my life and go back in time
when i laughed more often
i miss my laughs
i miss my old self

CHANGE

change is what obama wants rite? we all do...
i want change in this country like desparately
but i hate the sudden change in me...
im like such a boring hag nowadays..
i almost dont talk compared to my previous self
i only LAUGH when Ma is impersonating my maids or when i watch spongebob *sigh*
i hate my stupid boring loathsome self now ....I HATE IT!
i just wanna be my old self...
but the problem is i dont know what caused this sudden change in me...so i dont how i will go back to my old self may be all i need is time...

i hope Jayitappi's wedding 'festival' charges me up to my old hyped up self..CANT WAIT!